Monday, October 31, 2005
Many, many, many tons of things on mind that I want do.
1) I want to visit Wendy (my cousin) at United Square's Pastamania.
2) I want to get all the stuffs for prom (3rd Dec)
3) I want to get myself to mug real hard for this week before I enter the examination hall.
4) I have to make up my mind (prolly after Os, sorry)
5) I want to catch a movie (it's been a long time..)
6) I need MONEY! (work after Os, while i'm in the first 3mths)
7) Head down to the beach to get another tan
8) I want to lose 10 pounds.
9) I want to go SHOPPING~~
10) I want to go BOOGIE-WOOGIE ALL NIGHT... Clubbin' man!
*They are not in order of priorities.
If only money can drop from the sky. You wish ah.. Clara! I regretted not going to school last Friday. It was the last day of school term and it was the last day I could get to see Wan & Zan and the rest of ruggers. Believe it or not, i'll miss school in time to come.
I'll stand by you, as always <3
6:49 AM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
The usuals on Yan's birthday!
So, study week's here. A week more to O levels. I'm dead!
He came back once again. Coming back for good? Don't know. This 'thing' keeps going on & off. What's with it man? Time flies.. And this is the 3rd year we've known each other for and the 3rd time this feeling keep crashing into my heart. And definitly his, i think, for he's the one showing me the care and concern more than i've showed him.
Confused~ But no, it's not gonna affect my studies. Him or him? Two different person. I know I can't have feelings for the both of them at the same time la. But what to do? I was in the midst of this and the other one came in, again. Sigh..
Finally, met up with the usuals again. Went to Bishan to study for awhile but nothing could get into my head. Because i can't study HUMANITIES outside. Difficult to concentrate man..
Ray J - One Wish
Damn baby
Just don't understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you...
As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't know
We were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' room
Cause, we couldn't be alone
See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse
Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you
Listen and don't trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here's my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin' I’ll go, then I can have you for show
Then you’ll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don’t tell me what I’m feeling is make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn’t know what to do
I’d probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn’t be alone because without you I’m sick
Here’s my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish
I don’t even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
4:41 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
This week was like a no-school week. Didn't attend school for many days. Not tomm too. Having so called 'study leave'.
Friday was my girlfriend's birthday. Met at around 4pm. Went shopping ... and saw 2 bags which attracted me so much. Bought them, of cos. Waited for Yan's break-fast time to reach. Headed to Swensens. Okok, the total bill was almost $80! Goodness, so ex. But we shared among ourselves. Later, Man, Ruz & Amy joined us to slack at Taka. Pics of the day will be uploaded soon.
Happy 17th Birthday, Yan!
There's some problem with my com. Can't use the normal window. Have to use the Safe Mode. Super big la, the font.
My Sat was spent at hm till 9pm! Then over to Rain's chalet. (Pics will be uploaded when Rain send them to me) Didn't want to go initially, cos i was too tired after tuition. But felt a lil guilty. So met the ladies in town and headed down to Downtown. Went back pretty early and met up with the guys again. Man was drinking MARTINI. It made him high~ HAHA!
Happy 18th Birthday, Rain!
I love today man! Though i spent the whole day at home, but i managed to do quite a bit of work. YEAH MAN! Bert and the rest came over just now to borrow dvd from me, THE MAID. Super lame show!
Tomm's plan?
Out with Pa'eh! HAHAHA!! New name for Nat :) Created by the guys!
Stay tune for the pics!
Not forgetting, Bon Voyage to Sherraine! Enjoy your trip with your boy!
4:08 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I'm sorry that i've taken that too seriously.
And I know you're guilty.
Lets mend this together.
For you know that it wasn't worth to break this friendship up.
Ridwan, this gonna be the first and the last time this will ever happen.
I hope.
I've plans with Droick, Nat, Gerri & Yan tomm. That is to skip lessons! Tomm's lessons are all boring ... which means if we go, we'll be chatting away and doing NOTHING! We have planned to get our butts down to Orchard Library in the early noon to start mugging all the way till ... we're tired! yesyes, we gonna meet along the way... So Gerri will come from Sembawang, Nat will board the train at Yishun, followed by me at Ang Mo kio and yan at Bishan. That gay will go by himself la. HAHA! right, gay? =X
I should be sleeping now ...
EARLY GOODNIGHT!
2:00 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
As usual, I was out during my weekends.
Friday - Only went to visit grandma. *get well soon*
Saturday - Went for tuition. Met Huay Si in town. Nat joined us later. Went to shop for Azmi's b'day pressie. Then for yan's. I wanted to get a Roxy wallet and a Stussy shoulder bag. But it wasn't that nice after taking several times of look. The girls left ... then Man came to meet me. Shopped around and went for dinner. When Ruz came, we went to look for Azmi's pressie again. I bought a sling bag (pic below) and the guys bought a sleeveless for jogging. Yeah, the sports man! haha.
Funfunfun. went to slack at Taka. Man was tanking alone. Ruz and I was chatting away ... Left for Zone B and met Azmi..
Me, Nat & Huay Si
The pressie I bought for him :)
Myself outside Taka with half of Ruz - HAHA!
Myself at Zone B (a citizen corner near our place)
Ruz's in heaven ...
Man's candid ...
Here's a lil' story created by the guys - Ruz & Man - Edited by me a lil'
Him : Wah, my back very pain ...
One of us : Why?
Him: Look at my face ... I got punched!
Lookin' at him, so poor thing, i decided to take the pressies out.
Ta-dah! There you go ...
And his pain was healed.
HAHA!
I hope that you like it ... Are you lovin' it ? :)
Happy 17th Birthday to you! Welcome to the seventeenhood.
&
Happy 46th Birthday Mummy ... <3
3:10 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
As expected, i'm not asleep at this hour. A lil emo here ... no idea why.
BYE!
If you were mine - Marcos Hernandez
Chorus:
If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah.
Everything I dream about
everything I talk about
one thing I cant live without
I wanna get closer to you
cant stand being far away
knowing that you don’t feel the same way
watching him bring tears to your eyes
(chorus)
If you were mine
I'll be your everything
and you would be the only thing
that I would ever need(ever need)
if you were mine
ill would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that i could ever want.ohhhh yeah
All the words I sing about
all the letters I write about
the only thing I want to hear about
so can I get closer to you
I know there’s someone else
but he is only thinking of himself
doesn’t make any sense
for you to be lonely
(chorus)
if you were mine
ill be your everything
and youll be the only thing
that I would ever need
If you were mine
i'll would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want.ohhhh yeah
Let me be the one you share your hopes and dreams with
you’ll never be alone again cause I will hold you endlessly
please don’t be afraid to let your broken heart guide you
into these open arms that long to surround you, baby
((chorus 2x))
5:19 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
ytd's plan all went well ... including the last minute plan of chilling in town after my family chalet. Daddy sent me to Taka to meet up with ain, her boy, yan, ruz and man. amy came after work. chilled outside Taka. Amy had to keep saying about his mp3. in the end, i didn't feel like talking because i was guilty. super uber guilty about breaking his mp3. not into 2 pieces nor 3 pieces. it's broken into countless pieces :( i'm sorry !!!
all left, leaving me, ruz and man. as said in man's blog, ruz was very down. the party at indochine was cancelled due to some probs he was having (i think so!). so ... walked there to take a look. many many people! saw daryl too. so shocked! he's younger than me and he clubs. HAHA! didn't know peeps like him clubs though =X ooppppps! luckily we met some ruz's & man's friends. they joined us. and off we went tanking (new word for drinking). haha! the guys drank and i was there munching on my raffles chezzda chips and drinking my mineral water. haha! all got tipsy except for me :) good girl!
went home at ard 3+am. i'm super dead! i didn't study :(
myself & grandma @ chalet
my 2nd bro & grandma @ chalet
we're the statues, with ruz!
the guys picking up stones! 3years old?
the good old days when we were young!
in the mist .. the kick's coming!
after that ... they became gays!
we're in heaven!
the dead brayo & man.
Almost 20 cans of bredaS & redbullS can make them turn gays and vomit all the way while walking. that's grosssssss~
I SO HAVE TO START STUDYING!
6:42 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Some pictures that i've not post the other day.
reflection* [Yan, Man, myself & amy]
reflection 2* [Ruz, Amy, me, Man & Yan]
This pic is edited by me :)
I waste my Friday. I spent my whole day sleeping, woke up and have a piece of cheese toast and back to sleep again. I admit that i was ultimatly tired.
And today, there will be programme for me again.
1. Havin' accounts tuition later
2. My cousin's comin' over. Have to teach her & one of her classmates accounts. She'll be havin' N lvls accounting papers next week.
3. Going to my uncle's chalet with my family.
4. Meeting the guys? Not confirm!
Andandand, i gonna spend money a bomb this month. Azmi's & Yan's birthday is coming. Know what? I broke Azmi's mp3 player. how how how?! HOW AH... i know what am i going to do. Shan't elebroate here only till then.. BLEAHS!
Something's wrong with my tagboard. I can't tag. So here's my reply:
mirl: it's not y ah.. it's how ah.. HAHA! eh, no worries la, i understand :) see you later or what, you plan! =X
dude~: hi, you are? hmmm, that JC is difficult to get in. And with this sucky result, i doubt i can get in :)
12:08 AM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
I was supposed to skip school today cos I was really very-very-very tired. When realised that i've to attend school as i'll be receiving my report book. So went to school as usual. The first half of the day was super boring. I had 2 free periods. Then English lesson ... recess ... ISSUING OF RESULTS!
All excited ... our teeths bite onto our lips till it hurts ! Finally, our names were mentioned. I didn't dare to take a look at my result ... After a minute, i flipped it and .. VICTORY! I scored L1R5 - 20. Alright la, not that bad. Cos i didn't really study for my prelims ... so yeah ... i didn't expect much.
So now, I think i can only qualify for SRJC / YJC for the first 3mths with this kinda result. Till then, we'll see how.
Headed to the hall to do some admin work. Get forms for Prom Night. Paid the money .. chose the sitting plan .. blah blah blah ...
The battle is here ... We'll go all the way ...
A month more.
CIAOS!
6:10 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Everyone's sleeping soundly. And I just woke up from my beautiful 7hours of sleep.
Yan msged me but i didn't reply. I thought it wasn't important la. You know, one will always ask the other "hey, what are you doing?" or something which is like that too. So i went back to sleep after reading that msg.
The reason why i'm so tired is because i only had 3hours of sleep last night. The other reason being i had a English test last minute after school. It only ended at around 3:45pm. I headed home and did a little work here and there ... then ... SLEEP! :) How wonderful? VERY!
GOOD-MORNING! :)
4:12 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Remember the other time I mentioned that I was supposed to go on a fruit diet with Gerri? Of cos, we broke that diet plan. After the temptation by our mates during break time, we decided to eat with them. HAHA! That's bad ...
So i've decided to go on a diet again myself after looking at the pictures taken a year ago and the recent pictures taken during the Sentosa trip with the guys. Yucks! The contrast is like .. WHAO! big difference la.
Breakfast - Bread with any fillings / breakfast bar with a cup of milo
Recess - Just a packet of drink. Plain water will be the best :)
Lunch - I'll just skip it.
Dinner - My French toast with cheese / my favourite instant mushroom soup
I gonna stick to this till Os are over despite the fact that i'll eat more on some days. Yani's birthday is coming. We'll be going to cartel or something. So on the day itself, this diet plan will be ignored! OOPPPPPSSSS!!
My target weight - 45kg. GIVE IT TO ME ! :)
GOODBYE!
2:29 PM
Monday, October 03, 2005
Yesterday was Jia's birthday celebration at Pasir Ris park. I went to pick her up at her workplace after my tuition. Then accompanied her to do menicure. After which, get ready everything, blah blah blah .. Then Alton came to pick us up. He's freaking rich la, Mercedes Konpressor.
Luckily, God heard us from here. The rain stopped. The BBQ was fun despite of the smoke kept on coming towards me, resulted in having pain in my eyes. Left the pit at around 11pm. Jerad sent me to my place nearby as I had to meet up with Maman and Ruz.
Sat under a block. Chatted. Blah blah blah ... then here came the serious talking. About that bloody letter (i feel like tearing it away!). Out of a sudden, tears just rolled down. Mentioning about that will be the last time we're gonna meet up doesn't feel good at all. Though we know one another for only 2 weeks, but just because of someone's comments and all, we gonna stop here? No way am i gonna let this happen. I believe if there's a will, there's a way we can make things right. Maybe we wouldn't meet up as often anymore, cos i'll be having a really tight schedule by tomm. But still, we're friends. Don't let that letter bother you so much, maman. It doesn't make me feel good at all, you should know. And don't ever feel guilty about this happening to me. It wasn't because of any of you that made her write that letter.
I don't say too much. You'al should know what I mean by now, so much of explanation.
I'll slot in time in between my tight schedule to meet up with you'al. No worries!
Hasrat by Phyne Ballerz
Kasihku ingin ku menyatakan hasrat ikhlas di hati ini
Mungkinkah luahan dapat di abadi
Bagaimana harus nak ku buktikan
Tak terdaya hendak ku lafazkan
Hanyalah satu keikhlasan diri
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta... secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ku bersyukur pada yang esa
Hilanglah kesepian lama
Betapa sukarnya untuk memahami dirimu
Walaupum hatiku membara
Tiada apa dapat di lakukan
Sekiranya perasaanmu berduka
Kau permaisuri
Jangan kau bersedih lagi
Hanya satu ku pinta...secebis janjimu
Lelapkanlah mata
Kau selalu di hatiku
Terbayang dalam firasat
Termakbulnya hasrat
Ingin ku belai hatimu
Dan ku pegang erat jemarimu
Apa yang nyatakan... hanyalah ku rindu
7:43 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
it's finally Friday. however, there isn't any plans yet. except that yan's coming over my place to use the computer to complete her coursework. we're now in the school's com lab. she's trying hard to complete as much as she can while i'm here editing mine.
andandand, nat's coming over to my place too. don't know for what, but yes, she's coming. i'm gonna do my stuffs while they do theirs'. maybe i'll talk to yani and leave nat to rest since she's really sick. she's gonna meet her boyfriend later, so you know? using me as an excuse or something la, as usual. haha!
so, while i'm doing my work here, i'm also surfing the internet. saw so many new movies showing now. ah, i wanna catch a movie! anyone-anyone-anyone?!
ytd's a really bad day la. don't know how to describe it. but something made me think twice. nat pass to me a letter saying that she can see that my attitude towards my goals had changed. i got so distracted and all la. she even asked me to leave my friends alone. what's with them la? sighsighsigh.
Have i changed this much? Have i became so bad? What made me became like this? What's on my mind? Why is life this way?
Many people miss the last-time-clara. I miss her too. When will i be back to that girl again?
I MISS CLARA!! :(
DETERMINATION!
i'm not going to say anymore ... BYE!
RING ME UP ANYONE! AND CHATCHATCHAT WITH ME! PLAY WITH ME, THIS LITTLE GIRL.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! :(
4:53 AM